How can I describe 2012? It was a year of changes. I started the year having not decided on a school yet, but was certain about what path I wanted to set forth on. That being said, all I was really focusing on was the musical and finishing my senior year with a bang. Little did I know, the remaining days of high school that had once seemed so far away and intangible would pass no faster than the blink of an eye. I chose a college, turned 18, ventured to prom, went through all the motions of graduation, and said my goodbyes to the school and the teachers who had molded me from an insecure girl to a confident young woman. I was scared, but I was ready to take the next step forward in my life.
Over the summer, my fellow classmates and I said goodbye to the people who had been at our sides for the past one, two, three, or four+ years. It was difficult, but we had some of the best times, making some of the best memories before having to take off for each of our respective paths. As the days grew nearer to my time of departure for Hood College in Frederick, Maryland, I was in a state that was a cocktail of anxiety, excitement, sadness, and joy. I knew that the day I moved in would mark the start of a new beginning, and for everyone new beginnings are terrifying in the exhilarating way that roller coasters or skydiving is.
Now fast-forward to present day. I have maintained bonds, strengthened bonds, broke bonds, and forged new ones. I have met some of the best people, who I fortunately get to call my friends. Some have even become like family. I have broadened my horizons, and I’m not as scared to take risks and explore. My path is much different than it was a year ago. I know how to do laundry, how to clean and provide for myself, and (sort of) know how to manage my money more wisely. What I see myself doing in the future has broadened over the course of 2012. With more self confidence comes the ability to dream bigger dreams, and set higher goals, which I believe I can achieve.
I have matured far beyond what I thought was possible. I am able to look back at my past years at Wahconah and admit that ‘yeah, our school isn’t actually that bad.’ After going away for only 5 months, I can honestly say that the teachers and the education I received at Wahconah are responsible for my ability to grow and to be successful. I’m so incredibly thankful and honored to have been taught under such wonderful education professionals, and only hope that my fellow classmates from my graduating class, alumni who came before us, those who are still there, and the future generations will see this as they reflect in time. Words cannot describe how thankful I am for all the opportunities that I have been afforded this past year. And I know that I would not have been able to extend myself this far if it were not for the amazing people I have in my life. Family, friends, teachers, and acquaintances: thank you.
I leave you all with a last thought. Whether you realize it or not, you made a huge impact on someone’s life this year (good or bad), and someone else has made an impact on you. It’s hard to remember what’s important during the course of a year, but every time we look back, we can learn and grow. See what others did for you; see what you could have done for others, and implement those changes in the new year. Sure, you can set your usual weight-loss goals for the year, but please, just take a moment to pause and actually think about what these little changes could do for the world around you. If we all do this, the ripple effect will take over, and we could make our community, our country, and our world a better place to live and grow. 2012 has come and gone. I hope that as we ring in 2013, we ring in positive change for everyone here on Earth. Happy New Year!
It’s like 4 AM. I told myself that I was going to bed early tonight. Pffffffffffft, like that would ever happen.
I’m just really tired. And I have my period. I’m not saying they necessarily correspond to each other, but they both suck incredibly much. Hmph. And the Olympics live coverage started an hour ago, but it’s only Korea vs. someone else in women’s field hockey. And like, I really do like field hockey (have even considered playing), but I guess watching it in the Olympics is only fun when it’s 2 good well-known teams, ensuring that it will be worth an hour of my “precious” time.
Aaaaand now I’m hungry. Damn.
(Note to self: A new word, “Tirestless”, meaning tired and restless).
(Note to self No. 2: A new show, “The Young and the Tirestless”).
^^Autocorrect is already recognizing tirestless as a word…I’m a genius.
It sounds so final. I’ll be gone in 2 weeks. I’ll be living 7-and-half hours away from here in 2 weeks. I’ll be a plane ride away from all of my long-time friends in 2 weeks.
It’s so shocking to me. I have 2 more weeks of summer left. Because in exactly 2 weeks from now I’ll be restlessly tossing and turning in a hotel bed in Frederick, MD anxiously awaiting move in at 9 AM. I have so many questions in my head now, and I know that these will only multiply as the date gets closer. I don’t know what to expect; something so beautiful and terrifying at the same time. I only wish that my summer could have been more meaningful, more fun-filled, more spontaneous. But I can say without a doubt that I will try my damnedest to make these last 2 weeks the best 2 weeks of summer I’ve ever had.
I’m not fat by any regards, but I’ve noticed that I’ve just been eating a lot. I’m not sure if it’s out of comfort or boredom, but I do know that I’ve moved up a size in some clothes. And this makes me sad. I seriously hate exercising, so I’m not sure how I’ll motivate myself to do that, but I do think that I’m going to try and stick to a diet—a primarily vegetarian diet. I want to put good into my body so that I can produce good in my everyday life. If anyone has any tips please please reply? Thank you thank you!!
I really just want to be happy with myself again.